I have a friend that I love, she is like a sister to me. She is also a hot girl, and she loves sex. I am a virgin who desires her and that is not a secret for her, I confessed it myself, but we got along so well that it did not ruin our friendship, she simply told me that she did not want to have sex with me.
Recently she called me to tell me that she had sex with her boyfriend, while I masturbated listening to her story.
I felt good but now I feel pathetic.
Why does she do that? Does she make fun of me?